I always tell myself to be patient
but my left hand shakes
against your new couch
control of the situation
fell through my fingers
I heard her say :
"You can't keep living as if you're dying"
well, i'm dying

now in an awkward way
to spend the holiday
in such a deviant way to behave
its amazing how quiet this house is 
when the world outside,
it celebrates their new years
and their new fears

your addiction is okay,
'cause its manically approved
and the night has expired 
lay me down to sleep
but one more thing can you say diction
and admit my guilt, emergency
and emergency
its whispered at night

now in an awkward way
to spend the holiday
in such a deviant way to behave
its amazing how quiet this house is 
when the world outside,
it celebrates their new years
and their new fears